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Post by Tom McLeod on Aug 20, 2005 20:57:29 GMT -5
"Yeah. I mean, er, yeah. She'll be fine, but she did go through a lot. Well at least she's back here and will be getting back to normal."
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Post by Cambridge Brackenfield on Aug 20, 2005 20:59:24 GMT -5
"Right. So things will be just fine." Cambridge says and sighs. Sie smiles to hirself. "Listen, I am going to take a walk by myself. I need to think about some things. But why don't you make a nice big dinner for Selja. I am sure that she would appreciate it. I will be home later..."
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Post by Tom McLeod on Aug 20, 2005 21:01:04 GMT -5
"Okay, call me if you think you're going to be out for more than an hour or two though, okay?" I ask, though I will just call hir if sie fails to call me.
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Post by Nea Jokinen on Aug 20, 2005 21:02:21 GMT -5
"Your right, but I always screw up. I'm afraid at going at the worst time," Nea sighs. "I know you didn't want this and that I'm screwing up your plans, but I can't help it. I don't want to be left alone, that's all that has happened my entire life. I get attached to somebody and they leave me." Nea sniffs and wipes her face again. "I'm sorry Antero..." she didn't know why she said it she just felt like she was being indifferent to him and making him uncomfortable.
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Post by Cambridge Brackenfield on Aug 20, 2005 21:02:42 GMT -5
"I won't be back in an hour. Just don't worry, I am an adult. I should be back by 3am or something. I have nothing to keep me out long." Sie replies. "Don't wait up, don't call. I'll be back. Just trust me."
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Post by Tom McLeod on Aug 20, 2005 21:04:50 GMT -5
"Okay." I say, though I worry about hir. "I guess I'll see you tommorow then."
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Post by Dead Character on Aug 20, 2005 21:05:31 GMT -5
"I am not leaving you, and there isn't even any fighting going on. Come on Nea. Don't worry about it so much. Worry takes the fun out of life." Antero replies.They arrive back at the anarchist house and start walking upstairs towards their rooms. "I hardly worry about things at all in this life. It just isn't worth it."
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Post by gabby on Aug 20, 2005 21:07:13 GMT -5
I woke up in the next couple of hours and sat. I look through the window and easily tell that its getting cold now. I shouldn't stay in Moscow too long because I hate the cold and rain so badly. I got off the bed and changed into tight jeans, black t shirt and black leather high heel shoes. I fis my hair a bit before leaving the hotel.
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Post by Cambridge Brackenfield on Aug 20, 2005 21:07:17 GMT -5
"Later Tom." Sie pats him on the shoulder and walks off hir own way. Everyone worrying about hir is driving hir insane. When sie has a problem sie wants to deal with it on hir own, and not have the world worry about hir. It makes hir feel like sie is being locked in a closet or smothered in hir sleep. Sie walks off to a park and just takes a long and peaceful thought by hirself to collect hir thoughts.
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Post by Nea Jokinen on Aug 20, 2005 21:07:41 GMT -5
"Maybe I do worry too much. That's a probably I have with over analyzing everything," Nea starts to calm down and get better control over her emotions. "I guess I have been thinking about it for a while and when we were standing there..I just freaked out. I could see all of my worst nightmares playing out."
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Post by Tom McLeod on Aug 20, 2005 21:10:09 GMT -5
I head back to the apartment, and do as sie says: Distract myself by fixing a large homecoming meal for Selja and whoever else shows up. And there will be plenty of leftovers so Cambridge can reheat some so sie can have something before sie goes to bed...
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Post by Dead Character on Aug 20, 2005 21:10:15 GMT -5
"I guess I just don't understand that. I worry so little that when you freaked out, I got mad at you. I thought that you were making a scene for no reason at all. I am sorry, but I have a hard time understanding your emotions some times. I am not very emotional. I am always really even and laid back. Never very sad, angry, happy, anything. Always pretty neutral."
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Post by Nea Jokinen on Aug 20, 2005 21:12:39 GMT -5
"Normally I'm not very emotional either, either happiness or anger. But I couldn't help it...I couldn't help it," Nea trails off replaying her freakout in her mind. "God I'm so stupid." she said before heading off down the hall.
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Post by Dead Character on Aug 20, 2005 21:14:33 GMT -5
"You aren't stupid, Nea. I think you are smart. But I just didn't understand. But, it's okay. We won't worry about it right now, okay. Let's just forget about what happened. It is no big deal."
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Post by longsen on Aug 20, 2005 21:15:43 GMT -5
After 5 minutes of burning myself on my arms, I went to the bathroom and fill the tub with cold water. I put my arms in the water and waited for 10 minutes or so. I then took out my arms and stood there. My arms are so red and somewhat burn a bit but I don't care. I felt so numb whenever I cause pain to myself.
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