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Post by Natasha Nechayev on Jun 28, 2005 22:54:38 GMT -5
She takes seat and crosses her legs. You know... I used to have the same problems.
I used to think, "Well, I don't believe in any type of government. Then why do I belive God rules me?" Then I figured that God's kingdom really isn't a form of government. Its a sanctuary. Somewhere to go for the true freedom from government and oppression. Its what you make it really.
Well, as for all that moral junk in the Bible... I believe good people, no matter what they've done, are always going to Heaven. If your naturally a horrid person, your destined to roam Limbo till you get your stuff together. The Bible was written my narrow minded men who wanted things their ideals would shine through Jesus' though the centuries.
It acctually took me a while to get around to that. Almost 3 years, to be exact.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 28, 2005 22:58:46 GMT -5
"I've never heard a Christian say that before." He says with interest. He turns to face her, and considers what she has said. He doesn't believe in God, or morality, but respects her ideas none the less. "Heaven never appealed to me. I don't think spending eternity with Christians, angels, and clouds is all that appealing. I think I would chose fire and brimstone over Pat Robertson and the 700 Club." "But it is an interesting perspective you have." "What do you think Heaven is like?" He asks.
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Post by dariya on Jun 28, 2005 23:01:30 GMT -5
" What goes around comes around, you haven't seen the last of me Zivon, I am going to... I am going to make you sorry....
I collapse onto a park bench, an old woman walking a poodle stares at me.
"What are you staring at, ya old hag!"
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Post by Aleksandra Odinsova on Jun 28, 2005 23:05:36 GMT -5
I leave a note for Hailey that I went back to Russia and take the first flight out of Paris to Moscow.
I arrive back at my mansion and take a nice long shower. It is soooo good to be home.
Everything is just as I left it.
"Now, back to the business of making Lysander sorry for dumping me."
I go to my home office and look up the numbers of people I could send to kill him or to rape his girlfriend.
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Post by mihoko on Jun 28, 2005 23:06:19 GMT -5
After hours talking with my sisters and giving hugs to my nieces and nephews and went to my guest room. I changed from my clothes to a tank top and boxers. I jump onyo my bed and laying there. Sometimes i kept thinking about Damek but I really don't want to think about me and then again I had trusted him. Then I started siniging to myself
masshiro na sono hada wo kawaita kaze ga kusugette iru nagareru nagai kami ni hitomi wa sarawarete... kasoku sareta jikan no hari wo itsumo doko ka sameta mede nagamete ita kedo asa ga otozureru made kono sekai wa ochite yuku kara odori tsukareta ato mo kimi wo daite itai... gareki no ue awata dashikute tomare nakute itsu no mani ka wasurete ita kedo kimi ga warau to ureshikute asu ga nakute mo kama wanai caress of venus sunao na mama kuchizuketara saa oki ni mesu ga mama ni yubisaki made nani mo kamo ga mawatte yuku afurete yuku mienaku naru made kimi ga inai to kurushikute nani ga okite mo wanaranai kimi ga warau to ureshikute asu ga nakute mo kama wanai kimi wo KIREI na ano basho e tsurete iketara suteki da ne kimi no subete ga...... kimi wo dare ni mo...... kimi no tame nara...... kimi ni ageyou...... kimi ni hitomi wa sarawarete
As soon I stop singing, I slowly dozed to sleep.
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Post by Natasha Nechayev on Jun 28, 2005 23:09:18 GMT -5
Natasha laughs. Heaven is whatever you make it out to be. You wanna be reborn, then your reborn. You wanna fire and brimstone, thats you but I think it would be hot and stinky, no? I want my Heaven to be free and peaceful. Not chaotic like the real world.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 28, 2005 23:13:19 GMT -5
"My heaven would be a good life here on Earth, and to die peacefully and happily, my head full of the memories of a life that was at times painful, but in the long run, good." Heikki replies. He isn't sure that he will ever have that life, but it doesn't depress him. He long ago accepted his life. He sits closer and without really realizing it, takes her hand. "After this world, I just want to rest peacefully forever. All the pain and struggle will end."
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Post by Natasha Nechayev on Jun 28, 2005 23:17:00 GMT -5
She grips his hand a bit tighter and smiles. Then all the pain and struggle will end. Death is peace for those who want it.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 28, 2005 23:21:38 GMT -5
"Yes, then that is what I want." He replies. He looks down at her hands. They are pale and delicate, but her knuckles are red from gagging herself. This makes him a little sad. "You are very beautiful you know. You have a beautiful personality as well." He says, looking up at her circumspectly. He isn't use to complimenting people, but he does feel attracted to her. Maybe it is this familiarity of her presense.
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Post by Natasha Nechayev on Jun 28, 2005 23:26:15 GMT -5
She shakes her head sadly. I'm not beautiful. There are plenty of more attractive, thinner women out there. But thank you anyways. I... She looks down into her lap and sighs. I think I'm not in your league. Your so kind and well... very attractive.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 28, 2005 23:29:18 GMT -5
Heikki isn't sure what to say next. He tends to be rather shy. Instead of saying something he timidly touches her cheek with the back of his hand and after some thought, guardedly kisses her lips.
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Post by Natasha Nechayev on Jun 28, 2005 23:32:40 GMT -5
Natasha tenses up. Emotions flood through her head. She isn't quite sure about this. Somehow she knows he really does like her but still...
She pulls back and looks Heikki in the eyes. You... your not just attracted to my looks, are you? Its more of a question to herself, but she says it weakly.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 28, 2005 23:36:08 GMT -5
Heikki sits back and is sort of frightened that she pulled away. "Ah, no, no, I'm sorry, I don't know what I am doing. I am just being stupid. Sorry." He says anxiously. He rubs his arm and shakes his head. "I'm sorry, I am just really stupid and alone. And have just gone through a lot lately. I don't know what I am doing. I don't know anything." He says in appology. He stands up.
"I didn't mean to kiss you. You were just there and you are pretty. And you are nice and kind."
"I am sorry. I really am."
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Post by Natasha Nechayev on Jun 28, 2005 23:40:34 GMT -5
It... Its okay, I suppose. Its just that... well... guys usually like me because they say I am beautiful. I'm not used to be called kind or anything. She stands and places a hand on his shoulder. Um... I'm sorry if I frightened you. You just... startled me.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 28, 2005 23:45:12 GMT -5
"No, no, you're right I don't even know you. I just think I know you since you seem familiar to me. That and well, I am just a little alone. You did right to pull away." He says with abashment. He is ashamed of his behavior. "I have been a little mixed up lately."
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