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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 3, 2005 4:08:46 GMT -5
Heikki feels very frustrated, but keeps a cool level head. He stares at the dot patterns in his carpeting to remain focused.
"Maybe. I don't know what I'll do. Sometimes I just want to go to sleep and never wake up." He replies.
"I think my corpse would rott through the floor before Zivon or anyone notices that I am even gone."
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Post by Shurochka Kropotkin on Jun 3, 2005 4:28:06 GMT -5
"That's why you should come live with us!" I say, sitting up in my seat, and suddenly feel compelled to get Heikki to move in with us.
"You know you need a change of pace, right? Zivon is a bastard, come live with us."
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 3, 2005 4:30:17 GMT -5
"Just be happy. I have my own life. I never needed people before. I just get too attached to people anyway." Heikki replies.
"Have a good...whatever time it is there. I should go. It was nice hearing from you. Call again when you remember to."
And Heikki hangs up the phone. He walks into the living room with his head down and sits down on the couch quietly to collect his thoughts.
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Post by Shurochka Kropotkin on Jun 3, 2005 4:52:45 GMT -5
"Yeah you-" I say, and notice he hung up. I examine my phone, and hit the end button, then put it into my briefcase.
I pull my jacket over myself, feeling a little sad about Heikki, but quickly manage to fall asleep.
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Post by Zivon Nechayev on Jun 3, 2005 4:58:00 GMT -5
Zivon stumbles up the stairs into Heikki's apartment, and falls forward onto the door, pushing it open with his weight. He continues to stumble his way inside after kicking his shoes off and somehow makes it to the living room, where he falls onto the floor, then rolls on his back and begins to laugh hysterically.
"Ha ha ha... Ah hah, hah, ah I can't believe I fuckin made it home..." I say as I watch the ceiling rotate to the wall. I try to tell a story, but it keeps getting interrupted by fits of laughter.
"Ah damn, this bitch was tailgating me... And hahahaha... No wait, this is good... So she... She fuckin'..." Zivon is now laughing so hard he's incapable of finishing the story.
"Ah ha ha ha... Ah hah... Ah fuck, I'm drunk..."
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 3, 2005 5:02:06 GMT -5
When Zivon gets too drunk he can sometimes get a tad beligerant. But not in a bad way. He never punches or breaks things. But he does swear a lot and gets angry at imagined things.
"Hello Zivon. I'm glad that you made it back and that the...bitch didn't follow you?...." Heikki says quietly.
"I'm a little down again. Shura and Salome are a couple now. That means that you are my only real friend, even though you really don't believe in friendship as anything significant."
Heikki feels that he can be open with Zivon, since he is too drunk to remember what he said anyway.
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Post by Zivon Nechayev on Jun 3, 2005 5:06:56 GMT -5
"Ahhhhhhh good for you Heikki, good for you..." Zivon replies, not really hearing what Heikki had to say.
"Hey man that chick who was tailgating me..." I say, then sit up and rest my arms on his lap.
"...I think she called you gay." Zivon says in all seriousness, then starts laughing again, and loudly slapping the ground.
"Ahh don't worry, I set that bitch straight... I said 'hey if you don't like my driving... Get off the sidewalk'."
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 3, 2005 5:10:57 GMT -5
Heikki's eyes grow wide, first wondering who she is and why she called him gay then how she even knows him. He decides that the details aren't that important.
He looks down at Zivon, who is sitting on the floor with his arms on his lap. He can't help but feel a little anxious about this.
"Thanks for listening to me Zivon, you've made me feel so much better." Heikki says, even though Zivon obviously didn't listen to a word he said.
He starts feeling pain in his stomach from anxiety.
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Post by Zivon Nechayev on Jun 3, 2005 5:14:08 GMT -5
"Hey... No problem man, no fuckin' problem..." Zivon says with a smile, and shakes his head both times he says 'no problem'.
"That's what friends are man, I know that like, nothing really matters and shit, but really, that's what friends..." I say, squinting my eyes and looking up at the ceiling, trailing off a little. I decide that this is good enough and simply nod my head, and lay down on the floor.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 3, 2005 5:17:39 GMT -5
"You don't want to sleep on the floor. There's bugs on the floor." Heikki keeps a clean house, but he does harbor some paranoia that there are bugs in the walls which come out at night.
He helps Zivon off the floor.
"I'll take you to your room where you will be safe from the floor bugs." Heikki offers, and starts walking Zivon to his room. This is a little difficult since Zivon is a little off balance at the moment and speaking nonsense.
Once inside he helps Zivon onto his bed.
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Post by Zivon Nechayev on Jun 3, 2005 5:21:43 GMT -5
"Damn thanks man... The last thing I need to deal with right now are fuckin' floor bugs and shit." Zivon says replies, falling onto the bed, fully clothed and on top of the sheets.
"Goodnight, don't let the floor bugs bite..." I say, then fall asleep quickly. The drunker I am the easier it is for me to fall asleep.
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Post by Heikki Toivonen on Jun 3, 2005 5:27:36 GMT -5
Heikki just stands there dumbly for a moment before he silently trudges off to his own room. He closes the door behind him and locks it. He also locks the windows closes the drapes.
He changes out of his clothes and gets into bed, turning on his side to face the wall. He always sleeps facing the wall since when he was a kid and even a teen, he was afraid of aliens and demons and felt that if he faced the wall, at least he wouldn't have to see them when they entered his room. He would be wisked away and wake up somewhere new. He wouldn't have time to have that initial fear of abduction. Also, if he had his back turned to them and failed to acknowledge them, maybe they would leave him alone. At least that's what he thought.
Now he no longer believes in aliens or demons, yet, he still likes to keep his back to things.
If you don't acknowledge it, it doesn't exist.
He stares at the blank white wall before his eyes. And there is comfort in the blank nothing before him. More comfort than what his lonely life could ever offer him. Though being human and weak, he at times wishes to have something or someone to turn to.
He closes his eyes and goes to sleep.
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Post by day on Jun 3, 2005 9:55:34 GMT -5
"YOu know, you really should't put yourself down like that. YOu are just as important as I am, in your own way."
I smile. I hope that I can raise her self estime a bit.
We continue driving for a while, making small talk. We reach my complex, and go through half an hour of security, finaly getting to my home. We pull up into the drive, and I park the car.
"Here we are."
I sigh.
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Post by nikolaikarpatioth on Jun 3, 2005 13:11:25 GMT -5
Is it okay if I can't go? I mean I am a wiccan and I really wanted to spent some time with Ren. I haven't seen her in the last couple months." I hug Nik closer to me.
"If I am pregnat with your kid, are you gonna stay with me?" *Nikolai looked at Bastet amazed she even asked the question. He held her close to him and kissed her on the lips.*Nikolai:"Of course I would baby. I love you..."
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Post by bastet on Jun 3, 2005 13:13:25 GMT -5
I kiss him back and hold him close to me.
"I love you too............."
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