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Post by Aleksandra Odinsova on Mar 27, 2005 1:18:22 GMT -5
I keep moving. My days are long marathons of me doing my best to forget everything that happened to me. Tonight I put on a short skirt and head to the club. I am staying out all night and sleeping all day. That is the only way I can live.
I can't stop and think about things because they would just bother me too much.
I dance the night away trying not to care about life or anything too deep or disturbing.
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Post by Selja Hakalamaki on Mar 27, 2005 1:20:37 GMT -5
"That was fun. But yeah my dad and I went hunting every so often, usually for rabbits or squirrels, only once for elk. We also fished. That sucks though that you didn't get along with your dad..."
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Post by Valodya Bassarov on Mar 27, 2005 1:23:55 GMT -5
"He doesn't understand. He called me the other day and asked me if I was still involved with that "nazi stuff." He really doesn't understand me or my politics at all. But I can't blame him, it is a little difficult for him to understand. He just wants the best for me. He wants me to settle down, have a decent job, and just live like everyone else. He doesn't understand that it would kill me to just be like that and I want other things from life."
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Post by dariya on Mar 27, 2005 1:24:21 GMT -5
I leave the scene of the explosion. The news is already blaming it on the Chechens.
Good. But this is not enough.
We have to kill the president. Since Heikki is too afraid to, I will do it myself.
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Post by Selja Hakalamaki on Mar 27, 2005 1:31:26 GMT -5
"Oh... Maybe you should talk to him, I mean he is your father. He may want what's best for you, but does he really know you anymore?" I ask naively.
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Post by Valodya Bassarov on Mar 27, 2005 1:33:14 GMT -5
"I could try. My parents won't be around forever. Maybe someday I will regret it if I don't. But it is difficult when parents don't accept or understand. It is easier to see him as little as posible, that way we can at least get along with some civility when we do see each other."
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Post by dariya on Mar 27, 2005 1:33:57 GMT -5
I head back to Moscow in my car. I bought a used car with the money that I got from selling the SUV. It beats the hell out of taking the train.
When I get back, my parents are gone. I don't know where they are. They are usually at home.
I don't worry and just go to my room. I stare at the wall tapestry and think that it was a pretty good day.
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Post by Selja Hakalamaki on Mar 27, 2005 1:37:43 GMT -5
"Oh, I never thought about it that way... I mean my dad worries about me, but I can go home whenever I want, and we always get along..." I want to say something encouraging, but I don't know what.
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Post by Valodya Bassarov on Mar 27, 2005 1:39:50 GMT -5
"Ah it isn't important. So anyway, do you have any brothers or sisters? Or pets?"
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Post by Selja Hakalamaki on Mar 27, 2005 1:45:39 GMT -5
"I have an older brother, and I had a cat until two years ago. My brother's a supervisor for a carpentry company, we don't see each other a lot but we get along okay."
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Post by Valodya Bassarov on Mar 27, 2005 1:47:10 GMT -5
"Well that's interesting. I have a younger brother. He is a great guy, everyone in my family thinks he walks on water. I'm sort of the black sheep."
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Post by Selja Hakalamaki on Mar 27, 2005 1:53:31 GMT -5
"Oh, that's too bad. I mean I'm glad you're brother's such a nice guy, but it's too bad you're such an outcast."
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Post by Valodya Bassarov on Mar 27, 2005 1:56:45 GMT -5
"Oh it doesn't matter. Wow, I am really complaining a lot. I hadn't noticed it before. I will stop now. My life is pretty good. I would say that I am happy. Even with the many things that aren't so great, at least I am my own person. That is what matters the most. But really, I am very happy. I am glad to be here in Ireland and glad to be doing something for the party. I always wanted this."
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Post by Selja Hakalamaki on Mar 27, 2005 2:03:12 GMT -5
"Well I'm glad you're happy. I'd like to help you with what I can, even if it is just to keep you company."
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Post by Valodya Bassarov on Mar 27, 2005 2:05:08 GMT -5
"Well sure, I don't mind the help at all. And I won't always be visit terrorist groups. This is just something we are doing right now to see if we can glean supporters."
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